Ramblings

Since this is going to be ramblings, it will possibly be long and not necessarily flow, but there is meaning to my madness.  Anyway, much has been on my mind lately.  Heartbreaking things unfortunately.  You might think evil of me to share it with you but if I can't share heartbreaking news to friends, who can I share it with?  So here it goes.

When I receive a new calling, I dive into it with gusto.  Initially out of shear panic then I mellow down.  Receiving this call as Visiting Teaching Coordinator was no different.  I was petrified then two months later I was finally set apart and I felt a bit more relaxed.  I was given a wonderful blessing.  A part of that prayer stated a blessing to know all the sisters in the ward.  Goodness gracious!  Did I hear ALL?  Oddly enough, I actually took that mostly positively.  How cool is that?  I'd have the opportunity to know all the sisters.  See, things depend on how you look at them.  I could have easily taken ALL and been overwhelmed at the challenge, sure it crossed my mind, but I remembered that I was being set apart.  A blessing especially for this calling so it was my tool of guidance.  Hooray!!

From day one of the calling my mind and heart was in full gear.  Many hours of my days since have been consumed with all things visiting teaching.  In my quest to motivate you to do your visiting teaching, I received a strong testimony of it.  Now, how is that heartbreaking?  Well, by George, you sisters have bad days just like me!  One by one I am getting to know you and I feel your pain.  There are times I want to give up too!  Honestly, I was just thinking about that today.  I'm tired.  I'm tired of trying to be good all of the time.  I'm tired of not having everything in order.  So today I broke the sabbath and didn't go to church ... I was emotionally tired.  But our Lord didn't give up on me.  He still wanted me to know each of you, so today He had one of you call me.  What a wake up call!  I got to know more of why fellowshipping is important.  I've always had it in mind that I chug along and go to church for God and what I am there to learn and not for social reasons.  There is some truth to that but how would you like it if you had to go to an environment where you felt rejected?  That's how this sister who called felt when she went to church and so I got a glimpse of understanding the nature of her slipping away.  Hence, the importance of fellowshipping in church.

I did pray when I revamped the vt assignments last month.  A few of you probably thought that I didn't know what I was doing and the changes were evidence.  You might be right, but in the meantime what have you learned?  Think about what you can learn ... don't like your companion or one of the sisters you visit teach, so what do you do?  What you do is telling.  That in itself is a blessing!!  You learn something about yourself.

Please, try out your assignments.  Allow the Holy Spirit to direct and bless you.  I'm trying and I'm finding out that we all have a heartache/struggle but having someone there to share it makes it easier to burden.  Please, lighten your sisters' burden, go fellowship them. 

Another heartbreaking news I'm coming across is that some Home Teachers aren't doing their calling.  They need to go out there and visit their families.  So please encourage and remind your husbands to do their home teaching.  :)

Thank you for taking the time to read my ramblings.

Thinking of you always,
Jinky